Sunday, January 9, 2011
No more cookies for breakfast
My darling ducklings, how are you all feeling? Is 2011 everything you dreamed it would be? See, I do this thing where I set myself up for failure. I preach on about no expectations, forgiving myself, being in the moment and so on and so forth and for the most part I believe it. 2011 hits and I'm already berating myself for the yoga I've yet to do and the pending cleanse I'm supposed to start. My business, my extraordinary love affair with flowers and antiques is getting 90 percent of me, Tyler is getting the other 10 and everyone else is wondering where the heck I've been. I tell them, "don't worry you'll see me when things slow down after Christmas." Ha! Slow down? This train is moving full steam ahead and if I jump off now I'm afraid I won't catch it again. I've worked hard and I'm finally starting to get things organized but I'm beginning to wonder if things will ever slow down. Poor baby, this is a happy problem like when you open the fridge and there are two cheesecakes.
So, I didn't start the yoga but there is a certain amount of zen in the focus I have to give my business. The cleanse starts tomorrow, and to my family, relax I can eat on this one. I'm only cutting out sugar and dairy and I'll be drinking oceans of water, which I never ever do! No wonder I ache! I'll keep trying to forgive myself, remain in the moment and let go of my expectations for 2011 and if I can't, well, there's always next year.